saiya happy

yah, walaupn ramai yg jelez n dengki dgn kehappyan ak, ak akan still happy sampai mati, yayy, ade ak kesah dgn hati busuk orang? langsong ta amik port, weee.. ak teruskan hidup dgn senyuman ni, biar kan hati org akan terus membusuk sampai berulat. g mampos ar org2 yg ske mendengki ni, xwujud lagi bagus haha.. AKU HAPPYYYYY!!!!

latest k-pop chart

CN Blue were climbing up 70 spots and becoming the winner for this week chart! congrats to them!! meanwhile Beast- Mystery were down 4steps to 16th spot this week. :( 2PM latest single, tic toc, featuring eun hye unni are at nmber 3, yayy.. and of course, 2AM with their latest atomic single, can't let you go, took 6th spot right after their comeback. Congrats oppas!! ^^

p/s: all the songs above are all JJANG, all are my favourite lol, literally tho, i just can't get enough!!

wow :(

Few minutes ago my friend posted a sort of sad thing on his blog. It was for his ex-gf. And my reaction was: WOW~ he's truly deeply in love with his ex. I know only a bit of their probz back then, knew it from him and his posts. But this.. Hmm, wished I could say my sorry to him, hope he'll find a happiness in his life, and stay strong, as usual. orite dude? chayok :)

This is his post:-

kalau awak nak tahu jugak...

kalau awak nak tahu..
sy tak happy..
sy tak enjoy..
sy tak penah sronok ble tringt pe yg da jd..
sy ilang arah ble awak takde,tp sy tau sy kne tabah n sabar..
mngkin sy ngajar awak banyak bende,tp bkn semua bende yg sy ajar awak..
sy tgl kn awak utk awak blajar sendiri,berdikari hidup di tmpat laen dr kmpg halaman,
harap awak fhm..
mmg byk 'unexpected memories' kte..
secara jujur,bkn mudah nak sy lupe kn semuanye..
kite lari same2 dr polis wktu sy jumpe awak kt perlis dulu,awak teman sy pam tayar motor,awak bg sy birthday present,kte ngumpat pejalan kaki kt klcc,drama kte kt kl sentral.. dlm beberape bulan je kan..
semuanya hal remeh,tp knangan yg susah utk dilupekan bg sy..

kalau boleh, nk jugak sy tahu sape pihak ketige masok campur dalam urusan kite..
sab? kalau die,xpela.. sy da lpekan..
mybe sy xleh kawal prasaan waktu tu..
sy kesal ble dpt tau idup awak merana,sbb bkn niat sy yg sengaje..
jgn awak kesal klu awak xboleh tnjuk diri awak sebenar kt org laen,sebab awak still ade mse..
mse awak juz tamat klu nk tnjukkan kt sy..
klu awak da nmpak hikmahnye,bgs la..

kalau awak nak tahu..
sy xpenah stop fikir pe yg penah jd,walaupn mcm2 bnd sy hadapi these days..
fikiran sy bercampur.. sedih,sronok,kesal,sunyi,mati akal..
semua ade..
sy harap sgt awk dpt brubah..
da pasti bkn utk sy,brubahlah utk family awak.. kawan2,kawan baek,kawan baru,bakal kawan baek,bakal bf n semua..
brubah ke arah kebaikan,tu je yg sy mampu harapkn..
sy xmampu mngubah awak sbb sy sendiri pn xsempurna.. sy sendiri kne ubah dri sy..
byk kekurangan n kelemahan dri sy yg mngkin awak xtau..
xperlu awak tau,xperlu sape2 pn yg tau mlenkan dri sy..

kalau awak nak tahu..
saye da xkesah kalau awak nk tau o amik tau ape2 pasal sy..
awak da bebas nk buat ape yg awak suke n awak xperlu jge at sy dah..
xperlu la awak takut ape2 yg berkaitan ngan sy skrg..
sy kesal ape yg da jd kt awak lepas kejadian tu,n xperlu la awak tau pe yg jd kt sy..
sy lebih senang sendiri,sebab sy da xpercaye kt sape2 dah skrg..
walaupn kawan baek awak o kawan baek sy sendiri..
mcm2 bnde yg timpa sy,tp sy kne blajar ngan setiap masalah baru,dgn itu sy jd dewasa..
maafkn sy sebab bru nk bcerita,tp sy mmg ade byk masalah laen dr ape yg dah jd kt kite..
1 rahsie yg sy nak bgtau,sy xpernah mnanges sebab kaum hawa..
cukup murah air mte sy ble ade bnde yg brkaitan ngan awak,wlupn wktu edit+balas coretan at awak ni..
xpe,sy akan tunaikn pe yg awak nk..
sy akan lpe awak secepat yg mngkin..
tp awak pn tolonglah lpe kn sy..
maafknlah parents sy yea..
jage la dri awak baek2 ble kt tempat org..
jgn sng terpengaruh tau..
jgn sng terpengaruh..
jgn sng terpengaruh..
selamat tinggal sayang..
izinkan sy gune ayt tu utk pengakhiran,sy xpndai mengarang..

. . . . .

tambahan,kalau awak nak tahu..
mmg sy accident mlm tu,lepas sy hntar awak..

maafkn sy..

hapy-emo balloons

found these pix, balloons, cute floating things can also potrays the feelings. yah, quite intrested in these photos, enjoy :)

happy balloons :)

sad balloons :(

love balloons

emo balloons -.-

windy balloons, lol smart tho :D

kaw memang pundek

hahhh kaw smemangnya pundek yg paling fuckin pundek kat dunia ni. kenapa ak ckap kaw pundek? sbb da memang kaw pundek, nak buat cmane pundek? ikot suka je kenakan org. geram je kot ak rase, dasar pundek! kaw mmg pundek jalanan!!!

p/s: to people who easily affected by strong words, better don't visit this blog, ever, as it is a blog that frequently using strong words, nearly most of the time. so kalo rasa diri tu ada penyakit jantung ke, xbole trima stress yg banyak2, better dont visit this blog, orait?

latest single from 2AM!!!

wahh, setelah seminggu ak tunggu lagu ni lepas tgk segala mcm teaser dak2 2AM buat, akhirnya 21 Jan 2010 mini album dorg released, n ada 2 lagu dorg aku suka, To Her, featuring Chan Sung of 2PM, lagu tu fast beat, beza dgn bunyi 2AM yg biasa. Lagu yg ni mmg ak minat GILA2, sejak first time dorg release, ak asyik replay je lagu ni, naseb bek player tu xbole bercakap, kalo x mmg da lame ak kena sound, wakaka.. Ishh mmg best gile arh, bole gile ak jadinye, heee..




yg ni video dorg nyanyi live kat Music Bank, haizz nak g replay ag ni, lallala, tataa~

my luvly Nur Rosliah~

Baby comey ni belongs to my maksu. Nur Rosliah namenye. Suda 2-3bulan umurnya. Wonder how she got her name? It's because her dad name is Rosli, and mom Jamaliah. Combine nama, terhasil lah Rosliah, as she is the bukti of my maksu n paksu's love, heee sweet je en >.<

ni pix dia first day

this is her latest pix. besaw je mata tu, mcm sape ntah, lalalala

the "making a sengal face" is my maksu, heee

obsess

baru habiskan drama You're Beautiful, hero- Jang Geun Suk, heroin- Park Shin Hye. ak da minat lame da c geun suk tu, sejak dalam cite Hong Gil Dong n Baby& Me lagi, but mlalui drama ni ak jadi more n more loving this cute guy, hahah, urghh his my new obsession now!!! muax



ni salah 1 CF yg dia buat utk Samsung. cute, sdap gak suara dia, weee

first time drive= MENGGIGIL!!!

dah lama ak mntak ayah ak ajar bwk kereta, sejak tahun lpas lagi ni, ayah ak buat derk aje, huhh. TAPI, petang tadi a miracle has just occured, dia ajar ak drive! wahahah. seriously brdebar gila, macam2 ak fikir, tapi ak cpat2 buang suma fkiran tu, just stay positive n listen to my "teacher". garang gak, asyik kena jerit je. tapi mmg patut pon kena jerit, kalo x, alamatnya ke parit la kitorang, hahah. start bawak, mcm sipot, ak da pelik, rupa2nya handbreak ak xlepas, ngaa =.=". pastu kereta ak tetiba dtransform mnjadi kuda lak, weee ak xtekan clatch, haha lawak2. oke la jugak akhirnya ak taw basic mmbawak mnda alah tu, kalo x, ak taw cara nak bukak pintu n dduk je, then psang cd, HAHA

a flower from an admirer

Pagi tadi keluar dgn parents suma, tman dorg beli barang dapur (saje je nak mnyemak, boring dduk rumah haha) ayah lapar, sempat g mkan nasik lemak. aku yg suda kenyang ni dduk aje melangut (pkataan utara kot ni, maksudnya ala2 lepak camtu kot, oke2 sambung) kat kat meja skali dgn dorg. sambil2 dorg makan, mak ade nmpak sorang tu, mayb belasan tahun, n bkemungkinan bsar sakit down syndrome, tgh pegang bunga. mak aku cakap "ayah hang, tgk budak cina tu, pegang bunga, nak juai kot, comei ja), ayah aku senyum je, mcm biasa. aku toleh tgk, xnmpak pon. biar je la, sambung men2 game haha.

Ayah mak da habis mkan, kitorg pon bangun la, sbb nk truskan pjalann lagi, proses mmbeli barang dapurnya xstart lagi ha. lpas kitorg bangun, dgn serta merta nye dak tu pon bangun, ikut dari blakang. ayah aku sembang je la dgn dia. ayah aku tanya, "ni bunga maw kasi sapa? kawan ka?", then dak tu trus trsengih2, pastu hulur bagi bunga tu kat aku. haihss, malu gila kot, rmai org2 kat situ kbanyakan kenal dgn dak tu buat bising "Hoooo~~" mane dia dapat bunga ni pon aku xtaw, aku amik aje la, ksian tgk dak tu smpai merah2 muka, heheh >.<

Q & A :)

1) Were you named after anyone?
Nope. thats my grandpa's idea weee

2) When was the last time you cried?
last tuesday. still hurt :( but thanks to my friends for cheering me up, muaxx

3) Do you like your handwriting?
sometimes, depend on mood lol

4) What is your favourite lunch meal?
sambal belacan maybe? HAHAHA SEMUA AKU TELAN :D

5) Do you have kids?
im not even married lol

6) If you were another person, would you like to be friends with you?
absolutely. shes realy a sweet girl, rite? lalala :p

7) Do you use sarcasm?
(im thinking) what the hell is that @.@

8) Do you still have your tonsils?
xde kot, haha

9) Would you bungee jump?
errrr.............. (still thinking) errrr..........

10) What is your favourite cereal?
McDonald's BigMac, if that's one of cereal, HAHA

11) Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
i pakai selipar jepon la, no tali- tali, bwekksss

12) What is your favourite ice–cream?
chocolate for sure ;)

13) What is the first thing you notice about people?
style. whether they are just common follower, or a leader

14) Red or pink?
pink, red's too bright for me. NO NO NO~

15) What is the least favourite thing about yourself?
im too soft, n dunno how to "keraskan" myself, shit

16) Who do you miss the most?
mesul, weeee

17) Do you want everyone to complete this list?
lantak r. DO I CARE?

18) What colour of trousers and shoes are your wearing?
black, without any shoes, dalam bilik kot

19) What are you listening to right now?
my watch, lol

20) If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?
yellow, cambez huh

21) Favourite smells
fresh baked bread or something. seriously YUMMY!!

22) The last person you talked to on the phone?
pakcik kedai racket (silap nmbo) =.="

23) Do you like the person who sent you this?
haha. i just copy it randomly. haha again. haha

24) Favourite sports to watch?
i hate sports

25) Hair colour?
nearly black ngaa

26) Eye colour?
brown black. my adek noticed that

27) Do you wear contacts?
nope.

28) Favourite food?
hmmm, which one ha? too much to list in here lol

29) Scary or happy endings??
durhhh. happy endings opkos.

30) Last movie you watched?
Sherlock Holmes.

31) What colour of shirt are you wearing?
pure white :D

32) Summer or winter?
winter (bole brangan dduk kat korea HAHA)

33) Favourite dessert?
ice cream, or jelly, weee

34) Most likely to respond?
haha. i DOUBT that anyone will respond

35) Least likely to respond?
jembalang bawah katil kaw hahah

36) What books are you reading?
still in cuti mood, no time to read. >.<

37) What is on your mousepad?
muka RAIN.. awwww <3

38) What did you watch last night?
some korean latest vid clips on youtube. omg, im realy into Beast-Mystery!!

39) Rolling Stones? Beatles?
Beatles.

40) Where is the furthest you have been from home?
sempadan Thailand. haha my nenek sedara tinggal sana

41) Do you have a special talent?
i can put a smile on people face. dun belive me? u should have to, cuz u are SMILING rite now :)

42) Where were you born?
Kedah

43) Did you have a tough time answering to all the questions?
Not at all yayy

44) What's your favourite pass time?
tv. imma tv addict :D

fav song :)

ni lagu lama, but mmg kena dgn jiwa aku, cehh.. da lama ske lagu ni, hope org len pn bole rasa ap yg ak rasa lpas dgr n tgk vdeo ni :)

rajennye asma :)

hahah tgh hari tadi tetiba je aku bole "ter" rajen cuci rumah KoKo, my hamster. slalunya kna tggu mak aku bleter dulu baru la aku trhegeh2 nak bersihkan weee.. smentara aku bersihkan rumah dye, KoKo aku ltak dlam rumah dye yg lagi 1, which is lagi kecik dr rumah luar (pape je la haha) seb bek dye dduk diam hari ni, slalu taw nak kluar je dr situ, mayb dye xmaw rosakkan mood aku yg tgh rajen kot tadi, kalo aku da xde mood, alamatnye selamanya la KoKo tinggal kat rumah kecik tu, (till my mom balik la wahhaha gyle kejam tuan dye ni). last skali lpas siap cuci, aku bagi KoKo upah mkanan skit, bagi dya happy towk sambung tido, heee :)


beliaw ni la KoKo :p

new sem, hmm new life? nahh~

selasa 12jan dak medical lab mula mdaftar utk sem yg akn bmula 18 jan ni. so do i. ak sem ni amik 3 sbject wajib, which is hematology3, parasitology1, n histopathology1. lagi 1 subject LAN english intermediate2. ingat nak amik PC comp, but class code cuma ada lpas bukak sem nnt, haihs, kne la tggu dulu. jadual sem ni mmg rediculously like hell, gila babi pnye lambat, suma nak stok balik pkul6. kalo kl tu xde jam xpe la jugak. ni x, jalan sikit da trkemut2 byk sangat org kaya bwk kereta. arghhh!! tension toi la, kompem penat, cmane la aku nak study n siapkan assignment kalo da pnat dgn bnda mrepek ni, bingai tol, huhh..
pape pon, aku harap la sgt xde drama2 yg mnyakitkan hati lagi. xde la mnusia2 sial yg ganggu emosi aku lagi, n yg penting hidop aku kat kolej tu brjalan dgn lancar, aminn...

OMG

mase tgh ber-on9 bkak fb n mespes, aku sambil2 ushar gambo2 lengchai korea ni, kalo jmpe yg smart2, aku copy msuk lappy, bole buat screen saver, hahhaha
tgh2 mngushar, dapat jgak aku bbrapa photo mmat korea yg smart n cute pon ade, heee :)

gambar rain yg teramat cute. gmbar ni dia guna utk christmas wish, cute gle!


lee minho (junpyo dlm drama boys over flower) smart kot, da la ak ske black n white <3


ini lee joon of MBLAQ. dia jugak blakon as teen raizo dlm ninja assassin, hehe comel!

mencapub je tau..

perlu ke? penting sgt ke aktiviti mencapub ni, (or nama pnjangnya- MENCARI PUBLISITI) kalo nak buat ape2, snyap2 suda, jgn la asyk nak mnjaja crita kaw kat dpan smua org. kalo kaw single, prlu ek bgtaw 1 dunia, ooo.. baru la suma org taw yg kaw ni available in shopping complex en? lol, ak single stahun xkecoh pape pon, ni baru sehari dua, da kecoh mcm ayam btelur.. kalau nak buat bnda baik, perlu ar heboh 1negara? pastu bawak camera skali k, bole amik gambar, buat bukti hntar kat paper, yela baru nmpak baek ni, hahah

hidup kita yg kurang sempurna

manusia dilahirkan dgn dkurniakan akal skali,
tapi adakah semua gunakan kemudahan yg ada ni?
ak rasa xsmua,
kalo x, kompem suma baik, xbuat mnda2 yg merepek merapu

kalau semua org guna akal,
xkan adanya penjahat2
yg sekejam wilhelmina dalam ugly betty
(saje nak mention cita tu, rindu gila da lame xtgk..)

ak pasti kalo akal dgunakan spenuhnya,
suma org akan cuba memperbaiki hidup dorg
hari demi hari, tnpa henti or bosan
tapi hakikatnya? hampa..

bukan niat ak nak kutuk or hina sesiapa
tapi ni pkara yg smmangnya tjadi
even ak pown bkan slalu guna akal ak ni
tapi nk buat cmana kan, "lumrah manusia".. ayat biasa org kita..

kadang2 (slalu pn ada) org guna akal nak buat helah2
plbagai teknik dan method baru bole org reka
smata2 utk kepentingan diri
smpai xfikir psal keadaan org lain,
asalkan sendiri selamat, smua plan bole jalan
tapi prsoalannye: SAMPAI BILA AKAN SELAMAT???

knapa susah sgt nk hidop bila jujur ni?

urghh i feel like crying now, salah ke jadi org yg jjur ni? salah ke jd org yg stick 2da words? kcewa kot skunk ni.. :(

akhirnya lega suda..

weeee yayy final exam baru je lepas pagi tadi, alhamdulillah, bole jgak aku jawab suma2 tu, just tkucil sana sini ckit je, hehe, hmm cuti seminggu je kot, "bez, banyak bnda bole buat, weeee".... bwekksss!! yang penting aku nak habeskan tgk movie2 n drama yg ada dlm lappy ni, harap ada je, xtengok2 pown, ngaaa =.="

bobot: away

skarang ak dlm mood final exam, start selasa 5jan till 8jan. today got 2 papers, pagi immunohematology1, then petang lak medical microbiology3, gila pening jap dgn sbject2 ni, hadess, nsib bek jgak la buley djawab, xla rase frust sangat, weee.. tinggal lagi 2hari lagi, n 2 paper, esok cytology2, then finally clinical biochemistry3 jumaat ni, hope bole la jawab, amin, then cuti sem.. hmm xde pape yg patot di "weee" kan pon, cuti yg dapat pon cipot je, brape hari je cuti, sengal toi kedeQ, pastu masuk la aku ke sem baru, sem 6, wahh skjapnye rase, da super senior da aku ni, yayy :))

testing testing 123

heheh, just got a selendang, bcorak2, first time ni aku mmberanikan diri pakai selendang ala2 yuna ni, lol (sebijik xmacam yuna keyh, sumpa :p) dalam mase tgh boring2 sengsorang kat uma, aku pown snap2 r pix pkai selendang ni.. ade r dalam 80 keping gak bjaya aku snap, lallaallalala... heheh, ni antaranya:

lagu pertama utk tahun ini

tiap2 thun aku ada amalkan 1 menda ni, first song of the year, and tahun ni pemenangnya adalah Taeyang (from BigBang) Wedding Dress.. lagu ni aku buat jadi ringtone for messaging, and tepat pukul 12 je tem aku nengok bunga api (kat tb aje, xde mood nak kluar) tetiba nset aku bbunyik lagu ni.. Hmmm wedding dress yea, ngaaa xbley bla title dya, but lagu ni mmg bez gila, ske dgr music BigBang ni, xbosan.. ^_^

first post for 2010

assalamualaikum.. suda bbrapa bulan aku wujud kat blogspot ni, mcm2 cerita da ak kongsi bsama, da mcm diari pon ada, but bukan semua cerita ada kat sini lol, just about 30percent only, yg selebihnya, biar aku taip dalam hati sudah..
first day of 2010 suda pon bermula bberapa jam yang lepas, still got lots more to come, hope itll be fine.. harap2 aku still rajen menaipkan diri aku kat sini, kalo x, trbengkalai je la, wawawa, assalamualaikum lagi skali..

GOODBYE 2009, WELCOME 2010!!

salam, hmm for me,2009 was not the best year i've ever had, so many sad things happen, and i got mad so many times this year, habes banyak kedut2 aku dapat, zzzz...
january 2009, i'm still in the dark and sadness, kesedihan, kesadisan, kepiluan, kerinduan, realy had hard time, as i was just broke up with him in the middle of december 2008, and was celebrated new year all alone in the room, was crying silently, while people in the hood happily celebrating new year with their love ones.
i took somehow a long time to forget about him, and all the memories, and i think i failed.
this year my maksu sudah bkahwin dgn bf ksayangan dia, i'm happy for her. but at the same time i realy felt of losing her as my bestfriend. yea i know she got a husband and hv responsibility to her family, but not being tamak, i just need a bit of her attention. she didnt text me at all, (but only if there were a big thing) skarang nak balik kmpung pon da xde smangat da, da r xde kawan kat sane, xkluar ruma, xtaw nk g mane, haihzz.. =.="
aku jgak asyik trasa hati dgn kgkawan aku, ntah la nape sensitif je ni, but suma rasa2 pelik ni aku pendam je sengsorang, xde yg paham kot, hadoi. but i admit not all yg suckz, ade yg b there when i need them the most. this year i can realy realize whos the kawan sejati, n kbanyakan nye just b there when im happy, when im sad? hampehh..
knapa melayu ni hidop taw nak dengki mendengki je?? aku xpaham tol la dgn org2 yg ada sifat cmni. kalau taw nak dengki when someone got a thing better than u, then bila kaum kita nak maju?? suka eyk bila tgk orang lain down? bengong..
tahun ni pon aku jgak rasa semangat belajar aku makin menurun, da smakin fedup da nak mmbaca. wuwuw bila la nak habes ni, aku nak cpat2 masuk alam lain, da xmaw jadi student lagi...
salu gak aku kena tipu, dengan org yg aku kenal, yg baru kenal, n org yg aku xknal lgsong pown tipu aku, sial betul! biar la suma org2 shit tu kena tipu, biar dorg rasa, fuck u all penipus!!
walaupon orang nmpak aku senyum je, tapi hati ni hanya aku n tuhan je tahu.. :( and i dont realy love to share bad news with people. ill just keep the real story inside my head, and obviously its killing me, i got realy stressed out and going nuts about all these stuff..

but bukan semuanya kisah teruk2 jadi tahun ni. ada jugak cerita yg best n menggembirakan jadi dlm hidop aku.
this year aku jumpa smula my best friend, since darjah 5 kami bsahabat, n she didnt changed at all, as sweet as ever! love her damn much. kat myspace n facebook aku dapat jmpa balik kwn2 lama aku, which da berabad xjmpa, nseb bek dorg still ingat kat aku, huhu miss all my frens..
this year jugak aku dpat a bf, yg sgt2 sayangkan aku, n sdia bsama aku dlm gmbira or sedih, n sntiasa cool je, aku sygkan dia, xkisah la apa org nak cakap, bukan dapat apa2 pown dgn kata2, yg pnting aku bahagia, dsayangi org, n i realy want him to know that i luv him, n hope this relationship not only last here, hope itll be forever, amin..
thun ni jgak aku dpat byk mnda baru, camera dgtal baru, nset baru, laptop baru, spender baru, hahah (gila) happy dapat guna gadget2 ni, n yg paling bez aku ada internet yayy, mnda alah ni aku guna utk siapkan assignment yg bole dkatakan dpat stiap hari, lol, seriously, and alang2 da ada tenet ni, aku guna je la utk tjuan len, sperti facebooking, myspacing, youtubing, n downloading, lalalalala.. biar la aku nak buat ape, aku jugak yg bayar bil ni tiap2 bulan, xmntak duit jiran sblah pown, lol
im also had so much time hanging out with my frens, thanks for giving such a great time, hope next time yall still sudi hanging out wimme..

well2 2009 suda pon mnutup tirainya, and 2010 baru saja bmula, long way to go, sure lagi bnyak cerita, drama, conflicts, and hopefully good memories will be happening this year, still got loads more to be accomplished.
my new year resolutions?? shhh.. hahah :p